Sun-Maid

I think I'm a Sun Goddess. What? I do! I've had a fascination with the sun since I was very young. At sixteen, most mornings, I drove up to the top of the hill before school to watch the sun "pop" up out of the horizon. There is NOTHING I'd rather do. 30+ years later, I stop the bus, mornings I can, to watch the sun "pop" out of the earth...I feel the kids on the bus will remember that crazy lady that cared about nothing more than the sun rise! I like to stare at the sun with my eyes open and closed. I love to sweat endlessly with the sun and when the sun is not out, that's ok! The sun will return and it's a high for me, I can't explain. Without the sun I couldn't live! And nor, could all the things I love! But why, I love the sun, the trees, the animals...is unknown. The countryside pulled me out of the city I was born in and I have no desire for material objects. The dirt and I need nothing but the sun! Loving my passion today. Sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy. Sunshine almost always makes me high!

Namaste Sweetness,

AC

Affectively Effective: Effectively Affective

I'll probably have laxatives as my advertisements on my blog now!!  Which btw, never use those things!! I mean never!!!!!!  I know of an awesome herb remedy that is cheap and so effective!  (OH...I hate that word, affective, effective) I swear no matter how hard I study that, I can't seem to get that right!!  I should call my English Teacher friend!  : 0  I've changed the word twice now!!  Ok, you probably got the meaning and maybe you can comment the correction here, I'd appreciate it! ; ) My boys said I had a follower on my blog and we all started to laugh, I was SO excited, I couldn't stand it.  I screamed YEAH, I have a follower.  William got the brainy idea to click on the link to see who was following me!!  OMG!!  To my surprise it was ME!! Yes, you can imagine what kind of grief I suffered after that!!  Anyway, I want followers...so click away! My realtor is not calling me, EVER!  I'm pissed!  But, there is this stupid, "do the right thing angel" flying around in my head at all times, it's annoying!  "be patient, be patient, be patient"  ugh! My advice to my 19 year old last week, was be patient son, you have the world by the tail, make wise choices and it will be worth it!  OMG, can I NOT take my own advice!!  That, my friend, is my biggest problem, taking my own advice!  No, actually, I have talked myself through all my problems!  I have realized, the wiser I get, we have ALL the answers within us, we just need to stop and listen to it!!  I will miss my peaceful home here.  I once lived a crazy life here and definitely can say I found peace here too!! : ) LOVE TO ALL......

namaste' (bow) ac

Perfection

The most common advertisement I see on my web blog is "Eating Disorder Hope"  Are my blogs geared that direction?  Well, it will be now that I just wrote that, not intentionally.  Nutrition, Depression, Raw Foods=Eating Disorder Hope, could possibly be true.   Let's throw a twist and talk about Perfection, or is it a twist?  One particular story comes to mind talking about perfection, and I have many!  I have five boys and when they were all at home we would be getting ready to head to my parents house for a holiday.  In my fury to get ready and be on time, as I have a problem about being on time (no I didn't say that backwards) I have a need to be early.  I created unnecessary chaos in order to accomplish my goal.  At that very moment, fingernails, hair, clothes, shoes, eyebrows, attitudes, and life's purpose had to be in order in approximately 1 hour.  Since, I had the brainy idea to give my children a voice at an early age by taking great consideration of their feelings and opinions, they have big voices when I decide they need to be quite.   Remember life is a process.  I learned as I went and I didn't do the right thing all the time!  The hardest part for me was I wanted perfection at the moment and not necessarily at other times.  This confused my children.  In the end the boys were yelling at me telling me I had issues with my family and then I was hurt, ultimately crying.  How does perfection relate to my story?  Perfection as my definition would be our appearance as whole family.  What we looked like, how we talked, our interests, basically socially acceptable concerns.  This would place excellence, maturity and merit on my family.  While raising my family this was an enormous challenge for me.  Starting with the first divorce dealing with guilt and the feeling of incompleteness.  Evolving from letting go of damage I felt I caused to realization of balancing it all out again was a method of letting go of perfection.  Fulfilling my life by letting go of old patterns learned which meant standing alone and not "looking" so good for awhile.  This might of entailed a messy house because I was spending time holding a crying child for several hours, carrying extra pounds for failing to find the time to exercise or eating properly, showing up late, or having less money than the average person.  Awareness has brought a quality of life where perfection does not exist.  The pendulum is swinging but my scale is mainstream.  I do care about taking care of my family in a healthy, socially acceptable way.  I also leave room for my children to make their own choices as my opinion is not always the best one which brings me to my favorite quote from Albert Einstein:
Once you can accept the universe as matter expanding into nothing that is something, wearing stripes with plaid comes easy.  Kudos, to all my friends!


smiles,

ac

Mumble Jumble

Better sign in to my blog and get to blogging before the "mommy monster" comes after me.  I opened my mother into the world of blogging.  She didn't hear from me in a couple of days so she thought she could catch up with me here.  AND there was no new news!!  So many things to talk about.  I could continue my saga of the mortgage lending nightmare, no.  Or my good morning friend named, "head cold" that woke me up this morning, no.  Well, I could talk about my amazing JUICE I've been drinking.  Aww, its my fav.  It's a staple for life, um, one of them anyway.  I've been juicing 2 handfuls of spinach, 1 apple and 4-6 carrots in my handy dandy juicer that extracts the pulp (fiber), namely Juice Extractor Hamilton Beach.  I recommend doing this only when juicing greens.  I use my "GODLY" Vita-Mixer for my fruits, protein shakes and smoothies.  FIBER is important so don't think I am ALL about the extractor.  I just like to get a large amount of greens in each day and "ME NOT DRINKING" greens in my vita-mixer I can't stomach it, no matter what.  Again (from previous posts), if we must, talk about William.  He hears that juicer and he comes running.  HE LOVES my green drink.  I have to share and I am quite stingy!  Another Little Willie story....I use to juice my greens and then mix the juice in his baby cereal when he was just starting to eat solid foods.  awwww.....how adorably sweet was that.  He has the most amazing taste buds I have ever known!  I think he has super duper taste bud powers.  That boy has to have TASTE when he is eating.  He needs at least a three course meal at a time and he doesn't want anything breaded or greasy, man!!  He wants TASTE!  I told my husband, I CAN'T take it!!  YOU FEED HIM.  He takes after his dad in the area, so guess what, he feeds him!  Well, ya know, since I am such perfect picture of health, and I am Miss Healthy, runner person, I gotta sign off, cuz I am really SICK, (sadly, again)....I'm getting concerned about this.  Oh, I know its detox...lol!  Well, whatever it is, most likely lack of sleep, mounds of running and little stress from that dern, mortgage company!   p.s. that ended today at 1:00.  YEP, refinancing, complete!

Remember To Stop and Smell the Flowers

I refrain from to many formal activities.  Our Friday night out to Olive Garden was stiff enough for me.  Reasons are many!  I was in a business meeting with MetLife as we are refinancing our home, and my phone rang, I mean barked.  (lol)  Yes, the ring tone is a dog barking.  I felt the meeting was not to formal and the professional mortgage lender was busy typing on the computer, knowing it was my youngest son, I made a special exception to make sure everything was alright.
      "Hi, Mom", William said.
      Whispering I said, "Hi, Wils what's up." 
      "Oh, nothing." Pause.
      "William, what do you need?"
      "Can I have some chocolate chips?"  Usually under these circumstances, the answer would be yes, just to get them off the phone and I could deal with them later.  But I guess without thinking to much about it I replied back a quick no of which sparked more conversation.  "Well, what can I have?  I am so hungry."
      "William I will make dinner when I get home, so just eat an apple for now."  Thinking I have to get off this phone, while somewhat whispering,  but how can you whisper in a very small business office occupying two people.  Obviously this lady could hear everything I said.  I was regretting answering the phone by now.  "Gotta go, William."
       "Wait, wait, Mom?" William panicking on the other end.
       "W H A T?" I replied.
       "What kind of apples are they?"
       "Fuji, William."  By now I was embarrassed by having this conversation, realizing it wasn't an earth shattering situation.  Feeling like I just want to hang up the phone and not discuss what brand of apples we have at home and thinking this lady is going to think we are crazy.
       "Ok, as long as they aren't Red Delicious apples, I hate those kind.  You know I'd rather have Granny Smith, but Fuji will do.  Ok, thanks Mom, I'll see ya in a litlle bit."  My embarrassment subsided by the time William finished talking because by now I was smiling and chuckling to myself.  I hung up the phone gently putting the phone back in my purse.  Properly sitting up straight waiting for Ms. Mortgage Loan Lender Lady to continue with my situation.  She turns to me with her glasses on the tip of her nose and said, "He really doesn't know the difference between apples does he?"  At that moment I realized, your right, how many 9 year old boys care about what type of apple they are eating.
      "Yes, he really cares about that." I said, smiling and nodding and thinking to myself, if she only knew how much.
       Sometimes I wish my focus wasn't so much on the biological make up of every single living organism on this earth.  But its how my mind works and I see I've passed down to my children the awareness of what we put in our bodies.  Usually in my hasten furies my most precious lessons are revealed as long as I am listening.  



 

Diets Don't Work?

August 16, 2010- LOL!  @imjustsayin'
How many times have I read that sentence, "Diets Don't Work".  Well, I will admit, I've been on a lot of diets and they do work if you work them.  So, I disagree with that statement.  I do believe in making healthier choices and as long as they are permanent choices, you got it made!  I'm wise in Nutrition but that doesn't mean I am necessarily always on the right track.  Foods are addictive.  Mix in some stress, little depression, sprinkle with "loss of control".  The key for me has been and always has been, "Never give up completely", NEVER!  I've been divorced twice, raised three of my boys by myself and then finally met my wonderful husband of 12 years and had two more boys.  I was definitely one "out of control", "depressed", "stressed", mamma.  I was thin almost all of my adult life.  The last four years times have been tough experiencing biological changes, growing older, my boys leaving, (boo hoo) and I always come back to say, "Anything works if you work it!"

Reminiscing

June 7, 2010-Figured out today I have been consciously eating raw foods for 10 years, though have always had a love for raw fruits and veggies my entire life!! Wowee!! Been juicing for 12 years.....gosh! Thats awesome!! The last 5 years have been super duper rough. Hubby and I have been climbing a mountain for 5 years and guess what? We got to the top!! We are so excited! Its been a long haul, but we got there. I have been eating packaged/processed foods mindlessly and I've been depressed a lot! ugh!! So working my way back to my healthy ways....and helping others out along the way! I have been running a little bit and doing yoga occasionally. So, want to work on getting my routine back!! .....its a good raw day!

smiles,

AC
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