12 Steps

: ) I've been in "a better place" emotionally for many years now.  I was thinking about the "craziness" I use to live from constant committees in my head, insecurities to instability and all plagued my every action and thought.  I had to laugh when the boys told me this morning I needed therapy!  In that moment my memories flooded of how many therapy sessions I had been to.  Therapy sessions with ex-husbands, by myself, with one kid then another, with my husband, everyone as a family, with my mom, dad, and even other family members....LOL!  I am not KIDDING!!  Sounds pretty pathetic.  Someday maybe I'll grow up to be a therapist!  LOL!  Well, it was a process.  I'm thinking slow learner or maybe a die hard comes to mind here!  At any rate.....I DO believe in all 12 step programs!  FYI, they are EVERYWHERE and FREE!!  I really believe in reaching out and talking to someone because only then you realize you are not alone.  I spent many years feeling alone and lonely!  I walked the path of co-dependency, spent some time in ACOA Adult Children of Alcoholics, Al-anon, I wanted all my problems to be fixed at OA (over-eaters anonymous), there are a lot of depressed people out there, let me tell ya!!  I spent some time being depressed!  My husband said to me once, "Ann your problems are self-inflicted!"  UGH!!  Pretty much at that moment, I realized he was right.  I had stress in my neck so bad I couldn't move it. Then I realized enough was enough!  I was so done being co-dependent (only happy if you are happy, sort of person) OMG!  I think having 5 boys relieved me of that problem real fast!!  I decided it was time to take care of me and everything else would fall into place!!  So, whether you are 12 steppin' it or not, I learned any step forward is worth taking!! Cheers to all my friends!!

Namaste', ac